 | Today it’s cloudy and gloomy outside. Here I sit in “The Big Chair” looking out onto the greenbelt behind our house, wondering what’s important. The world is changing so fast — it feels like “Mother Culture” is dying all around me. Everything I’ve ever known [...] |
[...] is crumbling like a sand animation in a super-hero movie — and I’m left in the Big Chair assessing what things really matter.
I would describe myself as a “stuff-done” kinda girl. I usually move through my days with logic, intent and pragmatic purposefulness — aiming to get as much “stuff-done” as I possibly can. “Stuff-done” has always been a huge motivator for me and I have actually been very successful using that method in order to accomplish my larger goals.
But then, it’s now. Gigs are canceled. Concerts are postponed. Larger goals are compromised.
I’ve put a lot of things in my “stuff-done” basket over the last 3 weeks. Piano students are all online now. Drawers are clean, windows are washed and cabinets are organized. I practice piano. I run on the greenbelt. Groceries are stocked and, yes — we actually do have enough toilet paper.
Yet — here I sit in the Big Chair today, wondering. Of course my relationships matter. Friends, family, acquaintances and fans. It’s pretty amazing that I can reach out to the people in my life through technology when all other methods are out of reach. I have plenty of time for that now.
So what behaviors of mine really matter? What actions can I take that will make any difference after I’m gone? Helping my family, my neighbors, friends and even strangers to the best of my abilities, for sure.
Maybe it’s about the things I enjoy the most — maybe it really is about my creative abilities. Maybe the things that matter actually are the things that bring me joy, because if I’m joyful, that’s how I can bring joy to everyone else. Maybe.
Or maybe it’s just about sitting here in the Big Chair, watching Star Trek re-runs…
I would describe myself as a “stuff-done” kinda girl. I usually move through my days with logic, intent and pragmatic purposefulness — aiming to get as much “stuff-done” as I possibly can. “Stuff-done” has always been a huge motivator for me and I have actually been very successful using that method in order to accomplish my larger goals.
But then, it’s now. Gigs are canceled. Concerts are postponed. Larger goals are compromised.
I’ve put a lot of things in my “stuff-done” basket over the last 3 weeks. Piano students are all online now. Drawers are clean, windows are washed and cabinets are organized. I practice piano. I run on the greenbelt. Groceries are stocked and, yes — we actually do have enough toilet paper.
Yet — here I sit in the Big Chair today, wondering. Of course my relationships matter. Friends, family, acquaintances and fans. It’s pretty amazing that I can reach out to the people in my life through technology when all other methods are out of reach. I have plenty of time for that now.
So what behaviors of mine really matter? What actions can I take that will make any difference after I’m gone? Helping my family, my neighbors, friends and even strangers to the best of my abilities, for sure.
Maybe it’s about the things I enjoy the most — maybe it really is about my creative abilities. Maybe the things that matter actually are the things that bring me joy, because if I’m joyful, that’s how I can bring joy to everyone else. Maybe.
Or maybe it’s just about sitting here in the Big Chair, watching Star Trek re-runs…
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